suicides_lover's Xanga

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 03:34:39 GMT

today is...

TUESDAY!!!

so therefore...

tomorrow is:::

WEDNESDAY!

(which means)

i getta...

GO HOME!!!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 16:44:38 GMT

14 DAYS!!!

Friday, June 30, 2006

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 01:33:57 GMT

so yeah so far so good...notin to excitin here!well notin really at all!lol well yeah 20 days til i go home...i kno my lil sis is missin me already do thats kinda hard!yeah i kno imma bitch but i have a soft spot!lol well good thing is i think my mommy mite let me get my industrial,tregus,&& anti wen i get bak on the 19th!yay!!!im excited hope so lets me!!!lol well yeah idk wut else to say so im outie!!!...</3alli mar!e

*..beHind maH smIle arE thIngS yoU'lL NEVER unDerStaNd..*

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 17:27:48 GMT

This is to the girls who don't ever get the guy, the ones who are left out. The ones that lie in bed at night and wish that the guy they like would just glance at them, the girls who wonder what they can do to impress him, just so he'll notice. The ones who take longer to put on makeup, longer to pick the perfect outfit, to show him, even when he doesn't notice this is to the girls who are overlooked for what they really are, the ones who have been judged too many times. The ones that feel like there is nothing to do that can steal his heart, the ones who's tears turn into time, as nothing ever gets better. This is to the girls that stay strong though it all...

If you take a look inside a girl's heart, you'd see how much she really cries. You'll find secrets hidden, the best of friends, and lies. But what you'll see most is how hard it is to stay strong when everything is going wrong.

Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean that her heart doesn't cry. And just because she comes off strong doesn't mean that there's nothing wrong...

so yeah life is ok i guess not to much new went to chicago for chior n now im in the big old PA!lol yeah so far not the most excitin thing in the world but yeah i hope it all gets better!lol well yeah i think i mite be goin to this creations thing its like concert n wut not but its all bouts god idk how thats gonna go but i hopes it gonna be fun!umm yeah lots of hott guys here so far lol not to many live around this area jus a bunch of old ppl!:'( well yeah we r gonna go to hershey park one day n shoppin too!yay!so yeah that should be fun!o yeah n we mite be movin to joy but idk for sure yet we shud find out tonite!so thats kinda cool...im outie...</3alli mar!e

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Thu, 04 May 2006 21:08:37 GMT

I understand that Scissors can beat Paper,
and I get how Rock can beat Scissors,
but there's no frickin way Paper can beat Rock.
Paper is supposed to magically "wrap around" Rock, leaving it immobile?
Why the heck can't paper do this to scissors?
Screw scissors, why can't paper do this to people?
Why aren't sheets of college ruled notebook paper constantly
suffocating students as they attempt to take notes in class?
I'll tell you why, because paper can't beat anybody.
A rock would tear that motha up in about 2 seconds.
When I play rock/paper/scissors, I always choose rock.
Then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their paper
I can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say,
"Oh crap, I'm sorry, I thought paper would protect you...

lol i thot that was really funneh!well yeah ppl like to say shit bouts u behind ur bak or to the principal no not to ur face its like a sin or somtin!well yeah u kno hu u r n if u or ur mom have a problem wit me u can say it to my face bc u kno ive told u were stockys favorite n u didnt have anythin to say!wuvs u queen kong!lol...ne ways!this wknd shud be ok friday/morrow track meet in weithersfield...YAY!!!"not really"<<---a quote that will go down in history like tyler friden himself!...saturday i have 6 flags that will be fun!sunday idk wut im doin prolly sleepin in...o yes that rite!lol umm yeah i think thats about it!!!...so i think im outie...</3alli mar!e

A boy sits in his room. With unseen tears running down his face.
Not about to end any time soon. He sits on his bed, and reaches under his pillow.
He pulls out that hidden notebook with the pages filled.
Page by page he rips them out, the memories of her, good and bad.
The only person he ever loved was this girl.
He kept tearing at the pages, trying to let the feelings go,
trying to forget the girl who just s h a t t e r e d his heart into pieces.
Not too far away from that boy's home.
Sits a girl, all alone.
With music blaring and tears not heard.
Her head is down, actions speak louder than words.
Her hair falls down, all over her face, so messed up so misplaced.
Unheard tears streaming down her face, as if they will never end.
She understands that things will never be the same.
She takes out her notebook and a pen.
Starting to write of anythign that comes to mind.
She tries not to think about the boy...
because the only pain worse then having your heart broken...is breaking your own.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 22:33:36 GMT

MaYbE he said [[I love you]] cause that's what i wanted him to say...</3

the problem with guys is they make you
believe they love you;; when they dont
the problem with girls is they make you
believe they dont love you;; when they DO

so wow lift is ok i guess not to much new here...umm this wknd was ok kayla stayed n we babysat...haha we had power!lol umm saturday we went n looked for a car but didnt get one...sunday was easter went to church(ok i kno thats scary but my aunt asked me too so i did) n then went to grannys for an egg hunt(i hid eggs) and some food YUMMY! monday i watched austin not to excitin...this wk practice today which was a waste of time jus like the next three practices...friday i have a meet in rocki i think...thatll be fun...NOT!but yeah idk wuts goin on this wknd so yeah well im outie...</3alli mar!e

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 20:12:27 GMT

so yeah i decided it was time for an update...not to much has happened lately...umm track is suckin!im not doin good at all i think id be better off jus body builder for the rest of my life!lol well yeah family isnt doin to good long story but not good we find out wuts all goin down where shes goin wuts happenin morrow so thatll be fun!yeah not really...i mite be losin the one person i thot wud be there no matter wut even tho she hasnt been there lately...got caught up n things that she shud have never been in! :( she thot she was fuckin up her rents lifes but the tables turned n now shes in big shit!well yeah not to much else to say so im outie...</3alli mar!e

Monday, March 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 00:43:06 GMT

ok so yeah today i went shoppin wit my mommy n her friend kim...umm yeah it was ok i got a new HOT PINK bra(oober cute!) clear nose rings for track pants n PIG sun glasses!yay!umm yeah first track meet is on wednesday im so excited!yeah coaches think i have a chance at state AGAIN!but yeah they have really high expectations for me n i dont think i can get to em! :( but i dont want to let em down!so yeah life is ok wknd was borin i had the variety show fri babysat saturday n went shoppin today...umm yeah im in the quote mood!!!...</3alli mar!e

*the only guy that deserves you is the one
who thinks he dosen't.. the one that'll stick by
your side no matter how much you screw up
&& the one who will always forgive you..
mistake after mistake

*she's been hurt many times
before this. you'd think it
would be routine by now.
you'd think she wouldn't
let it get to her. but the truth
is, she trusted you. <33

*when theres something you want f i g h t for it
don`t give up no matter how h.o.p.e.l.e.s.s. it seems
and when you`ve ( lost) all hope ask yourself ..if later you`re gunna |[ w i s h ]| you gave it just one more shot
because the BEST things in life don`t come free

*don't lose hope >> when it
gets dark, the stars
come out.

*You know it's meant to be when even
at the times you can't stand him he's
still the only person on your mind.

*You want to BUT YOU CAN'T `
&when you do you wish you didn't
-Breakfast Club

*I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you
to say that there was no one else that you could
ever be with & that you wanted to be with me

*You know..sometimes we make decisions about
our life & they feel like the right decision at the time.
No, they are the right decision at the time. But that
doesn't mean they'll be right decisions forever. & you
know what I've realized as I've gotten older? There
isn't a definate right & wrong anyway. Sometimes
we do what seems wrong, but we have good reasons
for doing it, so it's not so wrong afterall.

*theres always gonna be that one guy
that no matter what happens between you
two, no matter how long you go without
talking, you never stop loving him. <3

*as much as i enjoy the concept of being "just friends,"
in reality, it's a bizarre form of torture
-- dawson’s creek

*I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of myself that I have never seen

*I have faced the fact you're gone I've realized that it's over, but what you have yet to realize is that you will never find anything better than what we had

*you'll never know how it feels
when the person that means
e v e r y t h i n g
to you has the ability to make you feel like
n o t h i n g

*it's hard to wait around for something that you know won't ever happen.
but it's even harder to stop when you know it's everything you want.

*“i’m ready… cause i know what i’m fighting for this time”

// CiNDERELLAMAN *

*the more you get to know a person, the more attractive they become to you. because everything beautiful you see on the inside of them, suddenly you’re able to see on the outside of them too.

*“You just have to go after what you want. If it doesn’t want you back, so be it. It doesn’t deserve you anyways.”

NiCOLERiCHiE

*the key to individuality is to get rid of that

“i’m afraid of looking stupid”

line of thought

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 01:35:32 GMT

so wow i think wen i die i want to be a mouse or rat so i can eat all the cheez i want!lol ok ne ways lifes ok my hair looks like indian corn or so says krissy!today was ok chilled at the house n went to auntys for a while...not to much has happened!so yeah i have notin to say so im outie!...</3alli mar!e

o yes or no on the new layout?!?!

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 01:36:50 GMT

so today was good me n my mommy went shoppin!YAY!well all i got was three shirts flip flops n the new him cd :D...n we went shoppin for like three hours wtf?ok well yeah we ate at carlos o'kellys...YUMMY!we got our pics taken in the booth thinger in the mall!they r great lol!we r such retards!omfg we got along today!im so proud of us!lol well yeah idk wut else imma do this wknd but im goin shoppin again on monday bc we have to get the kids new shoes n try to find my some shot shoes which we didnt find today...grrr!but yeah i think thats it for now...</3alli mar!e